So yeah…no news for a long time… oh well.
To start off with the biggest thing that happened lately:
My girlfriend and me decided to end the relationship. This due to a number of reasons that led us to both, seperately, come to the conclusion this would be for the best.
I feel very mixed about this, on one end it is a relief for there were strugglings and whatnot, but at the same time I still feel a lot of sadness.
Now for the quirky part(for most outsiders), we decided to still live together as room(house)mates and be awesome at that.
That being said, things are still struggling, again as well with the outside world. Which was what happened last weekend.
Last weekend there was Booyah. Where we play husband and wife. Or rather, used to play. Thanks to a little help from the GMs we ‘solved’ that. We both would get fed a potion where we would all but completely forget whom the other was and what they meant to us, how we filled that in was up to us. We both took a slightly different approach, I remembered her for the recent past more vividly then the past further away(eg. What happened 50 years ago was all me by myself, but everything recent, like the decisions made in the counsil I remember her being there, but all emotional connection was gone, along with a good picture of her in my head), with that I started to wonder why I did certain things, or why I was mad. This because I couldn’t remember her, and therefore the connected reasoning attached to that.
So then the game itself, it was good, fun but a little awkward at times. I had moments of lesser activity, mostly because I was numbed at times. Because seeing your ex, however dear she still is, can hurt when you have no distraction, especially when she looks attractive as she did at times. And that makes a man think, think about things he want and things he wants to shunt away from but can’t.
In the end that led me to a decision, one I hopefully won’t come to regret in coming times, but that, only time will tell the answer.
That being that, in the coming times I will work with Marco and Petra on designing items for our smith part of our characters. Makes things more in depth and more logical how to do them, and more particular the difference between Duerghar and Dragovenian smiths.
All there is left for me is to find out what to do with my character, now that an important part and brakes are suddenly gone I have to revise a good part of his motivations along with goals. I know he will become more stubborn and less friendly to other races(exception being them) as his race demands, seeing how all the experiences with his non-Duerghar wife ceased to exist. This will bring about some interesting things.
As for far-fetched plans, I have a few with him. Some are secret, others a whole lot less.
To start off with, there is this notion that we should be able to incorporate Duerghar in rituals(they can’t now, not without making the ritual fail automatically).
Then there is the most ambitious project of making a zeppelin! or flying airship, haven’t decided which one to go for. For now we have determined a few critical steps which have to be sorted out before anything is viable to begin with. Aside of all the resources we need propulsion and lift. We have a few ideas of how we can accomplish things, but nothing concrete.
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